Get fcked up in a good way.

There are times when your life gets so fcked up. You get broken. And even though you want to cry , scream and eventually get  caught up in hysteria, you can’t. Cause you’re just too tired of your damn crazy life. You become so tired of fighting for what you think is right, fighting for the truth and standing up for yourself. You get so weak and feel numb all over. You can’t feel pain, anger or outrage, but instead, all you feel is weakness and lowness. No matter how much you try to distract yourself, those bullshit  and lurid details are still the ones that dominate your mind. And you reach the point wherein you feel hatred, not for the people around you but for yourself. You hate and pity yourself. For being so wimpy, so miserable,  so overly-attached. That point when you regret ignoring all the advices your friends gave you. When you got mad at them for intervering with your happiness, for judging you and how you feel, when in fact, what they wanted was only the best and only the best for you. They know you better than you know yourself. You were looking at the present, they were picturing out your future. And they don’t want that beautiful picture of your future to be screwed up by immature decisions of yours. You were blinded by different emotions. Emotions that were temporary. Well you know what? Life gets so fcked up. It always gets fcked up. Life fcks us all. But this life is given to us for a reason. It’s  because someone up there believes we deserve to. To have this life. so, when you  experience your life fcking you, enjoy it btch. Get fcked up in a good way.  Never let your life shape you. You shape your life. Be the director of your movie, not just an actor. Be the author of your story, not a character. 

Things not to do after a break-up

 Relationships unfortunately reach an end. Not all but most. Duh, we’re high school. Too young too dumb. We keep rushing things. We assume that he or she is already “THE ONE”. Aba, may pa the one the one ka na eh di mo nga ma memorize formula ng projectile motion sa physics. Ayusin mo buhay mo teh. Hahaha. Okay. So, when a relationship ends, ang daming nangyayari. Ang dami mong gustong gawin. Go, gawin mo. Pero please, here are some things NOT to do.

1.       NEVER LISTEN TO EMO SONGS.

Alam mo yun? Yung mga kantang pang brokenhearted. Shet lang. Songs like, Let Me Be The One, Before I Let You Go, Don’t Forget, I Won’t Give Up, Someday at That Should Be Me. Mga kantang title palang, nakaka buiset  na. haha. And stop raping the replay button kaka ulit ulit ng theme song niyo. Jusme.  Ang sakit sakit na nga ng nararamdaman mo tapos makikinig ka pa sa mga kantang ganyan? Then ano? Iiyak ka? Iiyak ka na may naka paslak na earphones sa tenga mo at nakatitig sa bintana? Naka drugs lang teh? Wala ka sa pelikula. Feelingera. Stop it.

2.       DO NOT DRINK AND DRINK AND DRINK TILL YOU GET WASTED-TIPSY-DRUNK.

Ikaw lang ang hiniwalayan. Huwag mandamay ng ibang tap. Take this, pag nalasing ka, ihahatid ka pa sa bahay ng kaibigan mong concerned, tapos siya pa sasagot sa lahat ng tanong ng mga magulang mo, iisipin pa nilang bad influence siya where in fact, sinundo ka lang niya at ikaw lang ang nagpakalasing. Tapos susuka ka nang susuka. Papagalitan ka ng inay at itay mo. Brokenhearted ka na nga, sasabunin ka pa. ma re-realize mo pang wala ka nang pera dahil ang dami mong nagasto sa beer. Hangover the next day. Sasakit lalo ulo mo dahil naalala mong wala ka na palang syota. Hangover. Hangover. Hay nako. Dinagdagan mo pa problema mo. Adding insult to injury. So, huwag ka nalang uminom. Bakit? Pag uminom ka ba, pagdilat mo, kayo na ulit? Hindi eh! Ano yan? Magic drink? Shabu pa!

3.       Don’t rant about your broken heart on facebook, twitter and GMs.

Oo, you have the freedom kasi account mo yan. Pero consider mo naman yang mga facebook friends at twitter followers mo. THEY DON’T GIVE A DAMN. Hindi ka naman nila hinihingan ng advice diba ? ang masaklap, pag chi chismisan ka lang nila. Promise, there’s nothing more annoying than tweets of someone who is undergoing heartbreak. Tapos ano? Pangalan mo lang makikita namin sa timeline? Pagbukas ng twitter, puro mukha mo andyan. Ano ba yan. Bahang baha na yung home page namin ng mga quotes at retweets. Heto isang daan, pang bili ng pisi tapos bigti ka para masaya lahat. Joke.

4.       DON’T SKIP MEALS

Brokenhearted ka? Ba’t di ka kakain? Ano? Kailan pa naging puso ang tiyan? Masakit na nga puso mo, dadamayin mo pa tiyan mo. Shunga lang. One way of  distracting yourself is by eating. A lot. Dedmahin mo muna diet mo. Make yourself happy. Kahit paminsan minsan lang. walgas mo pera mo sa pagkain. Punta ka sa paborito mong sosyal resto at magpakababad sa pagkain. Saya niyan.

5.       Don’t say stupid things about your “ex”

Sakit nun ah, “ex”. Haha. Doesn’t mean that you’re not together anymore, you’re already free to destroy his image and reputation. Oo, may mali siya. Pero may mali ka rin eh. May dahilan ba’t kayo nag hiwalay. Huwag mo siyang siraan. Remember, you fell for him/her. Kaya mo siya sinisiraan dahil nasasaktan ka. Eh nasasaktan din naman siya. Pinapalala mo lang dahil sa mga sinasabi mo. You’re just proving that what he/she did was right. That letting you go was a good decision. So instead na siraan mo siya, better shut up. Huwag mong gaguhin sarili mo. Bigyan niyo ng space isa’t isa. Naghiwalay lang kayo, di pa katapusan ng mundo kaya huwag kang OA.

Break ups happen. Most of us experience it. Yes, it hurts. But remember, there’s more to life than him/her. Hindi naman umiikot mundo mo sa kanya. You still have your friends, family, etc. wala naman siya sa buhay mo dati but you managed to survive. So, kaya mo rin yan ngayon. Kailangan mo lang talagang tanggapin na hindi lahat nananatili sa buhay natin. People come and go. You’re young.  Learn to let go and live life. Kung kayo, kayo talaga. But if not, wag pilitin bes.

BLOG UPDATE

It's been a long time since my last blog post. Crap. My blog's filled with maggots and flies. So what happened to me for the past five months? Well...

• I live in a bukid. BUKIDNON. Fck it.
• I celebrated my sweet 16th, ALONE. Thanks to my forever awesome friends. Thanks.
• Spent the two months of my summer reading books, watching kdrama, sleeping, eating and reviewing for an examination I wasn't able to take. Pretty fun huh
• I went to sschool on the 5th day of June thinking that it would be the opening of classes but no. They changed the schedule. Nganga. Palaw.
• I travel an hour just to get to school every fcking day.
• A van picks us up at 5 fcking thirty every fcking morning
• The van I'm riding is filled with rich kids. By rich, I mean english-speaking kind of rich.
• for the first time, GENSEC AKO. REGULAR SECTION. WELLLLLL
• I am a nerd. I do homeworks, at home. My classmates copy my answers, people ask me about math and physics shtness. Yes, I am a nerd.
• I've transferred houses twice now.
• I have braces and I wear glasses.
• I am miles and miles away from my btches
• I am unfortunately, single
• I AM NOT READY TO MINGLE SO FCK OFF

My life here's below boring. Below uninteresting. But on the brighter side, few more months from now, I'm leaving this place. Hello Davao. Hello freedom.