Get fcked up in a good way.

There are times when your life gets so fcked up. You get broken. And even though you want to cry , scream and eventually get  caught up in hysteria, you can’t. Cause you’re just too tired of your damn crazy life. You become so tired of fighting for what you think is right, fighting for the truth and standing up for yourself. You get so weak and feel numb all over. You can’t feel pain, anger or outrage, but instead, all you feel is weakness and lowness. No matter how much you try to distract yourself, those bullshit  and lurid details are still the ones that dominate your mind. And you reach the point wherein you feel hatred, not for the people around you but for yourself. You hate and pity yourself. For being so wimpy, so miserable,  so overly-attached. That point when you regret ignoring all the advices your friends gave you. When you got mad at them for intervering with your happiness, for judging you and how you feel, when in fact, what they wanted was only the best and only the best for you. They know you better than you know yourself. You were looking at the present, they were picturing out your future. And they don’t want that beautiful picture of your future to be screwed up by immature decisions of yours. You were blinded by different emotions. Emotions that were temporary. Well you know what? Life gets so fcked up. It always gets fcked up. Life fcks us all. But this life is given to us for a reason. It’s  because someone up there believes we deserve to. To have this life. so, when you  experience your life fcking you, enjoy it btch. Get fcked up in a good way.  Never let your life shape you. You shape your life. Be the director of your movie, not just an actor. Be the author of your story, not a character.