I was feeling moody lately.
Petty things annoyed me, I kind of wanted to be locked up in my dorm room and a
part of me wanted to go out, half of me did not want to talk to you and the
other half just wanted to give you a long tight hug. Took me days to find out
what caused such feeling. And I realized that perhaps, what makes me cringe the
most is the thought that I have no idea kung
anong meron tayo. And I seriously feel like sht most of the time. I don’t
know if I have a right to get jealous, pero bai, gago I feel jealous most of
the time. I, so bad wanted to show you off but every part of me knows I can’t. everyday,
I never fail to wish to let the world know you’re mine. But I, myself don’t
even know if that’s true or just a product of my nonsense and assumerang
imagination. My heart’s tired of hiding its feelings butI’m entirely scared
that once I blurt out words expressing how I feel, purely different words might
come out of that mouth of yours. I know ma pride masyado but yes, I fear
rejection. I don’t want to be that girl who gathered up all the courage that
remained of her and only ended up being rejected. So perhaps, even if I’m so so
so so tired of hiding, pretending and being confused, I’d be left with no
choice but to continue doing it until I either find the answer or wait for
everything to slowly fade away.
